|Romanized Title:||-Maboroshi to Genjitsu|
|U.S. Release:||October 10, 2005|
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Shades of Reality is the 164th chapter of the Rurouni Kenshin manga.
Kenshin goes back to the Kamiya Dojo and says that he is going to take a nap after being assaulted verbally and physically by Enishi. Kaoru notices that Kenshin seems to be very worn out, like he has never suffered so much in his life as he just had. Kenshin unable to figure out how to atone for killing Tomoe finds himself and Hell, and realizes that he is just as worthy of being in Hell as Shishio is. To his dismay, he also finds Kaoru in Hell, and is so distraught when he sees her he drops the honorific for the first time in the manga. He wakes up screaming when he sees Tomoe's face in his nightmare, covered in sweat and panting heavily. Kenshin notes that the ghosts of his past are getting to him, to the point of where he is going insane; to make himself feel better he goes into the dojo to where Yahiko and Kaoru are fencing. He notices that Yahiko can sense the impending crisis, which makes him train harder. Kaoru asks Kenshin if he is feeling alright, since he would appear to still be spacing out and looking miserable. Kenshin thanks Kaoru for her concern and holds her arm noting that her warmth is comforting and real, as is the sweat and wounds from Yahiko's training.Finally he realizes that he must reveal his past to his friends and tells everyone the true mastermind behind the operation, i.e. Enishi whom he refers to as his "brother", but then corrects himself, calling him his "brother in law" and the brother of "Himura Tomoe", his wife whom he murdered with his own hands.
Kenshin reveals his past to Kaoru, Megumi, Sano and the others and also about his brother-in-law.